I would love nothing more than to be married, barefoot, and pregnant in the kitchen of my own home. Alas, this does not seem to currently be in God’s plan for my life. I am single, a graduate of Mesa State College/Colorado Mesa University who majored in English with an emphasis in writing, and the oldest of seven children (six girls and one boy, since you’re wondering, and no he isn’t the youngest). I don’t want to be a teacher in the traditional sense but that always seems to be what i end up being. Most people don’t realize this, but i am past my thirtieth year. I have long been a great fan of sarcasm/irony and had a witty sense of humor that only a few kindred spirits seem to get (like my quirky sister BrinnaRose). I never want to be cruel, but i am very literal, and it is very important to me to be as honest as possible.
I am not politically correct, i never have been. I am a conservative who leans libertarian in some areas. I am pro-life, pro-gun, pro-homeschool, pro-homemaker, and a tomboy. I love to challenge myself, like when i recently climbed a telephone pole to ride a zipline. I am used to camping without an outhouse. I use technology constantly. I am a geek to the extreme, a bookworm, a history nerd, a walking encyclopedia. I used to have a vast vocabulary but am currently recovering from aphasia that was induced by a short bout of Bell’s Palsy four years ago Thanksgiving. I prefer action movies even while i’m a hopeless romantic who is really gutted that she still hasn’t met her Imzadi/soulmate.
Oh yeah, i’m also a Christian. I say that as an afterthought because it just permeates everything i do. I don’t talk about it a lot, but rest assured that any opinion i have has been prayed about and analyzed with the Bible in mind. I take “pray without ceasing” literally. I’ve never been drunk, i’ve never done drugs, i’m a virgin. Yes, i’ve had a couple of relationships, but the most important one has always been my relationship with God. I’m currently struggling with a Dark Night of the Soul, but i have been a Christian since the age of five, and all my memories of my life before that are overwhelmed with the instinctive knowledge that i would serve God for my entire life. I am His and He is mine. I don’t attend church as regularly as i would like anymore, and i have trouble connecting with people, but i am always in communication with God even though the Holy Spirit currently feels out of reach.
I don’t want to preach here so much as inform. I may have opinions that you disagree with. My second sister, when told by someone that he would have to “agree to disagree” with her, responded: “I don’t care. You aren’t disagreeing with me, you’re disagreeing with the Bible.” That’s how i feel about a lot of things. I know not everyone can see the world as i do, but my viewpoints are based on the Bible and common sense. Wisdom is my goal. Overcoming hardships is the story of my life. And my aim is not to change you so much as encourage you on your own life’s journey.
“Not all those who wander are lost.” ~J.R.R Tolkien